Thursday, September 24, 2009

life rantings.

Sometimes I wonder why we have to go through so much hardships in our lives. I have not had the easiest of lives to lead. Parents divorced by the time I was five, no memories of ever having a real family, dad not wanting to really see me until I was older, and a mom who tried her best to raise me on her own. Growing up, I'd hear the kids talk about events and outings they enjoyed with their parents; I never knew that feeling, I do not remember my parents being together. I am not close to either of them. Even now, I do not know how to be. I find it weird and awkward when my dad tries to be what he considers "fatherly" considering he has not had much practice.

But despite all the things I have gone through in my life, not just the family issues, but also so many other happening that I do not feel comfortable writing about, I am glad I endured them.

I would not be the person I am today if it were not for these events. We has people go through so much shit in out lives, and what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. Sounds cliche I know, but it is true. The choices and events in our life shape who we are. We can either let the bad stuff crush us or we can learn from it. We can feel sorry for ourselves or we can take action and strive to make things better. We can let terrible things control our lives or we take back the wheel work towards something better.

Life's a bitch and shit happens, but don't let that stop you.

1 comment:

Amanda said...

Great post, Tesia :)
Thank you for sharing your heart. I think you're brave for talking about your past; I know how it's been hard for you. But, by being able to talk about it, you can help others who are going through the same thing, and you can show them that you made it through!

You're right about not giving up and learning from bad situations and moving on. I just did a devotional about "going the distance" and "enduring." Matthew 24:13 says, "Those people who keep their faith until the end will be saved." And Paul talks about endurance in Hebrews 12:1-3. God knows that we will struggle sometimes, but He gives us the tools and strength to overcome!

It was great seeing you the other day :) We must do it more often!

Love you,