Saturday, September 26, 2009


"Things get damaged, things get broken
I thought we'd manage, but words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give"

"Precious" by: Depeche Mode

I don't even know what I'm feeling right now. i made a mistake and I just hope it will be fixed.

Friday, September 25, 2009

the long and winding road.

"Many times I've been alone
And many times I've cried
Anyway, you'll never know
The many ways I've tried

And still they lead me back
To the long and winding road
You left me standing here
A long long time ago
Don't leave me waiting here
Lead me to your door

And still they lead me back
To the long and winding road
You left me standing here
A long long time ago
Don't keep me waiting here
Lead me to your door"

- "The Long and Winding Road" by: The Beatles

Please, don't leave me here. Alone. Lead me to your door.

I've been on a Beatles kick these past few days, expect more post with Beatles song quotes.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

life rantings.

Sometimes I wonder why we have to go through so much hardships in our lives. I have not had the easiest of lives to lead. Parents divorced by the time I was five, no memories of ever having a real family, dad not wanting to really see me until I was older, and a mom who tried her best to raise me on her own. Growing up, I'd hear the kids talk about events and outings they enjoyed with their parents; I never knew that feeling, I do not remember my parents being together. I am not close to either of them. Even now, I do not know how to be. I find it weird and awkward when my dad tries to be what he considers "fatherly" considering he has not had much practice.

But despite all the things I have gone through in my life, not just the family issues, but also so many other happening that I do not feel comfortable writing about, I am glad I endured them.

I would not be the person I am today if it were not for these events. We has people go through so much shit in out lives, and what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. Sounds cliche I know, but it is true. The choices and events in our life shape who we are. We can either let the bad stuff crush us or we can learn from it. We can feel sorry for ourselves or we can take action and strive to make things better. We can let terrible things control our lives or we take back the wheel work towards something better.

Life's a bitch and shit happens, but don't let that stop you.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Some days, most days.

I feel as though I'm being taken advantage of and used by the one person in my life that I feel I can trust. The thought of cutting my ties with this person has crossed my mind so many times, but I have not been able to bring myself to fully go through with it. This person means too much to me, even though I am almost positive I mean nothing to them.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009


"You're a part time lover and a full time friend." - The Moldy Peaches

No other words could explain it better.

"I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you."

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Love Will Tear Us Apart

When the routine bites hard
And ambitions are low
And the resentment rides high
But emotions wont grow
And were changing our ways,
Taking different roads
Then love, love will tear us apart again

Why is the bedroom so cold
Turned away on your side?
Is my timing that flawed,
Our respect run so dry?
Yet theres still this appeal
That weve kept through our lives
Love, love will tear us apart again

Do you cry out in your sleep
All my failings expose?
Get a taste in my mouth
As desperation takes hold
Is it something so good
Just cant function no more?
When love, love will tear us apart again

- Joy Division.