Sometimes I wonder why we have to go through so much hardships in our lives. I have not had the easiest of lives to lead. Parents divorced by the time I was five, no memories of ever having a real family, dad not wanting to really see me until I was older, and a mom who tried her best to raise me on her own. Growing up, I'd hear the kids talk about events and outings they enjoyed with their parents; I never knew that feeling, I do not remember my parents being together. I am not close to either of them. Even now, I do not know how to be. I find it weird and awkward when my dad tries to be what he considers "fatherly" considering he has not had much practice.
But despite all the things I have gone through in my life, not just the family issues, but also so many other happening that I do not feel comfortable writing about, I am glad I endured them.
I would not be the person I am today if it were not for these events. We has people go through so much shit in out lives, and what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. Sounds cliche I know, but it is true. The choices and events in our life shape who we are. We can either let the bad stuff crush us or we can learn from it. We can feel sorry for ourselves or we can take action and strive to make things better. We can let terrible things control our lives or we take back the wheel work towards something better.
Life's a bitch and shit happens, but don't let that stop you.
I feel as though I'm being taken advantage of and used by the one person in my life that I feel I can trust. The thought of cutting my ties with this person has crossed my mind so many times, but I have not been able to bring myself to fully go through with it. This person means too much to me, even though I am almost positive I mean nothing to them.